There has been so much rain today that much of the area is under a flash flood watch. Tomorrow's forecast? More rain. I wonder if the nearby areas on Boy Scout and Sandswitch will flood? There have been times in the past where they have called off schools because of potential flood hazards. YIKES!! After a long holiday weekend, that would not be good!! Be gone thought!
Rainy days can be good.... good for mugs of hot cider, studying Greek, watching a little bit of football, and watching the drips come inside from the roof in the sun porch. Drip, drip, drop. Thankfully, our bread pans fit perfectly on the window sill to catch the rain. We've emptied them out a couple of times already.
I've been practicing parsing Greek verbs in the imperfect tense today and practicing the vocabulary for Chapter 10. I will take the quiz sometime tomorrow evening. Then, it will be on to the future tense. Whew! I wish I had more time to invest in Greek. It isn't that I haven't invested time (because I have), it's just that I could spend double the time I'm spending and probably still not get it all.
There is so much left to be done that I'm struggling with simply "being" right now. I would like to "be still and know..." yet I have two reflection papers to write, job stuff to take care of, mentored ministry hours to accumulate, things to check in on, etc. And, I must not forget the roles of parenting and wife. Tonight I got to be parent to a tired child who had travelled to Kentucky and back for a quick overnighter with some friends. She had inadvertedly recycled a homework assignment that explained what was due on Friday, Dec. 2nd. Being chilly, rainy, and dark outside, I brought the recycle bin inside and dumped its contents on our tile floor. What a relief to find that pale yellow piece of paper!
To my left is a book, one of the resources for which I need to write a reflection paper. It is entitled: Reframing Your Ministry: Balancing Professional Responsibilities & Personal Needs. It is by Anthony J. Headley. I thought I had been doing a decent job of that through the years (more recently). I have been listening to my body and recognizing that when my body says I need rest, I'd better take it. I have been "Mom" over other roles and was able to work my teaching schedule around that. Yet, this book has challenged me to a new level of thinking with its contents. Not only through the words on the page, but I've had the opportunity to live it out throughout this semester on several occasions.
It has caused me to think, reflect, and become more firm in my commitment to take care of myself prior to attempting to take care of others. That means rest, accountability, study, etc. I must make sure that I am living in an intimate relationship with the One I am following. I am learning to live into what I knew in my heart and mind, that taking care of one's self is ministry. In fact, it is foundational. Additionally, I am determined to put my family before the needs of external ministry, recognizing that ministry to my family is ministry. From this solid foundation will flow ministry to others.
The book has lots of examples of folks that have done it the other way for many years and they have found themselves burned out, giving up, empty, etc. I want to offer living water. I can only do that if I drink from the fountain.
It's a balancing act. There are muscles that still need to grow. Yet, I have been challenged in the past two weeks with both self-care and family situations, and I believe I made the right choices. Now, to continue to make these types of choices when the stakes are higher and it is no longer simply for course I'm taking. Hopefully my muscles will be stronger then. Hopefully I'll have walked the path and will know what it feels like.
The pitter patter of the rain drops landing in the metal pans is lulling me to sleep now. It is time for rest.
So much rain...
Good night,
May your journey include some peaceful rain and rest,
Debra
Sunday, November 27, 2011
Thursday, November 24, 2011
Thoughts and quotes from Jesus Calling over the last few days and weeks...
As it continues to happen, when I read the devotions from Jesus Calling by Sarah Young, often the words strike and penetrate to the core of where I happen to be at that particular time in my life. Sometimes, what I read might be more for someone else and I find that I have the opportunity to share it later.
I thought I'd go back today and jot down some of the things that stood out to me over the past days and weeks. There might be something here that speaks to you.
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"Do not let any set of circumstances intimidate you. The more challenging your day, the more of My Power I place at your disposal." (November 11, page 330)
"Approach problems with a light touch. When your mind moves toward a problem area, you tend to focus on that situation so intensely that you lose sight of Me. [....] When a problem starts to overshadow your thoughts, bring this matter to Me." (November 15, page 334)
"As you look at the day before you, you see a twisted, complicated path, with branches going off in all directions. You wonder how you can possibly find your way through that maze. Then you remember the One who is with you always, holding you by your right hand. [...] As you look again at the path ahead, you notice that a peaceful fog has settled over it, obscuring your view. You can see only a few steps in front of you, so you turn your attention more fully to Me and begin to enjoy My Presence. The fog is a protection for you, calling you back into the present moment." (November 16, page 335)
"Not many Christians know how to live in this radical freedom, which is their birthright. I died to set you free; live freely in Me! To walk along the path of freedom, you must keep your mind firmly fixed on Me. [...] Be content to be a simple sheep, listening for My voice and following Me." (November 17, page 336)
"Instead of trying to figure things out yourself, you can relax in the Presence of the One who knows everything. [...] Stay in touch with Me, even during your busiest moments." (November 18, page 337)
"Leave outcomes up to Me. Follow Me wherever I lead, without worrying about how it will all turn out. Think of your life as an adventure, with Me as your Guide and Companion. [...] Enjoy the rhythm of life lived close to Me. You already know the ultimate destination of your journey: your entrance into heaven. So keep your focus on the path just before you, leaving outcomes up to Me." (November 19, page 338)
"You don't have to perform well in order to receive My Love. In fact, a performance focus will pull you away from Me, toward some sort of Pharisaism. This can be a subtle form of idolatry: worshiping your own good works. It can also be a source of deep discouragement when your works don't measure up to your expectations." (November 20, page 339)
"Thankfulness takes the sting out of adversity. [...] You give Me thanks (regardless of your feelings), and I give you Joy (regardless of your circumstances). This is a spiritual act of obedience--at times, blind obedience. [...] Thankfulness opens your heart to My Presence and your mind to My thoughts." (November 24, page 343)
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I don't know what in these quotes (if anything) might speak to you as you read them. What have these things said to me? Mostly they have reminded me to continue to trust and follow, to take life one day at a time, to live each moment to the fullest, to be thankful, to live into the freedom I've been given, to relax, to enjoy....
Blessings on your journey.
~Debra
I thought I'd go back today and jot down some of the things that stood out to me over the past days and weeks. There might be something here that speaks to you.
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"Do not let any set of circumstances intimidate you. The more challenging your day, the more of My Power I place at your disposal." (November 11, page 330)
"Approach problems with a light touch. When your mind moves toward a problem area, you tend to focus on that situation so intensely that you lose sight of Me. [....] When a problem starts to overshadow your thoughts, bring this matter to Me." (November 15, page 334)
"As you look at the day before you, you see a twisted, complicated path, with branches going off in all directions. You wonder how you can possibly find your way through that maze. Then you remember the One who is with you always, holding you by your right hand. [...] As you look again at the path ahead, you notice that a peaceful fog has settled over it, obscuring your view. You can see only a few steps in front of you, so you turn your attention more fully to Me and begin to enjoy My Presence. The fog is a protection for you, calling you back into the present moment." (November 16, page 335)
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| Peaceful fog in my front yard-- 11/22/11 |
"Not many Christians know how to live in this radical freedom, which is their birthright. I died to set you free; live freely in Me! To walk along the path of freedom, you must keep your mind firmly fixed on Me. [...] Be content to be a simple sheep, listening for My voice and following Me." (November 17, page 336)
"Instead of trying to figure things out yourself, you can relax in the Presence of the One who knows everything. [...] Stay in touch with Me, even during your busiest moments." (November 18, page 337)
"Leave outcomes up to Me. Follow Me wherever I lead, without worrying about how it will all turn out. Think of your life as an adventure, with Me as your Guide and Companion. [...] Enjoy the rhythm of life lived close to Me. You already know the ultimate destination of your journey: your entrance into heaven. So keep your focus on the path just before you, leaving outcomes up to Me." (November 19, page 338)
"You don't have to perform well in order to receive My Love. In fact, a performance focus will pull you away from Me, toward some sort of Pharisaism. This can be a subtle form of idolatry: worshiping your own good works. It can also be a source of deep discouragement when your works don't measure up to your expectations." (November 20, page 339)
"Thankfulness takes the sting out of adversity. [...] You give Me thanks (regardless of your feelings), and I give you Joy (regardless of your circumstances). This is a spiritual act of obedience--at times, blind obedience. [...] Thankfulness opens your heart to My Presence and your mind to My thoughts." (November 24, page 343)
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I don't know what in these quotes (if anything) might speak to you as you read them. What have these things said to me? Mostly they have reminded me to continue to trust and follow, to take life one day at a time, to live each moment to the fullest, to be thankful, to live into the freedom I've been given, to relax, to enjoy....
Blessings on your journey.
~Debra
"Does Christ Rain?"-- sermon from November 20th at Burks UMC
I said I would post the sermon I gave at Burks UMC on November 20th. Here it is. As I mentioned in my reflections, I was privileged to give it 3 times. It was a little different each time.
In the past, I've left in the [PAUSE] spots. This time, I took them out to facilitate reading. I added in a couple of things I added in Sunday morning. May the reading of this reveal to you Christ the King.
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Two Scriptures come to mind when I reflect on how I personally respond to Christ. These two passages have become part of my faith journey. The references are on the GPS for you. The first one is one I had to memorize for my first mission trip as a faculty advisor to Caribbean Christian Center for the Deaf in the 90s. As faculty advisor, I wasn’t in control; the students were. Memorizing these verses was required to get into supper. Memorizing has never come easy to me and I wasn’t so sure I’d be eating that first night. This passage from Philippians and having to memorize it has impacted me on several levels. Since that mission trip, I refer to these verses as the “Jamaica verses” and I have tried to have the attitude of Christ.
Philippians 2:5-8 (NIV 1984)
“Your attitude should be the same as that of Christ Jesus:
6 Who, being in very nature God,
did not consider equality with God something to be grasped,
7 but made himself nothing,
taking the very nature of a servant,
being made in human likeness.
8 And being found in appearance as a man,
he humbled himself
and became obedient to death—
even death on a cross!
In the past, I've left in the [PAUSE] spots. This time, I took them out to facilitate reading. I added in a couple of things I added in Sunday morning. May the reading of this reveal to you Christ the King.
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“Does Christ Rain?”
Ephesians 1:11-23
Burks UMC, November 20th, 2011
Scripture: Ephesians 1:11-23 (NRSV)
Good morning! Don’t forget your G.P.S. that is printed on the back of your bulletin, for note taking, doodling, or staying with the message. You may have noticed the title, let me assure you that the title is not a typographical error. I intentionally spelled it “r-a-i-n” instead of “r-e-i-g-n”. Did it get your attention? Maybe you searched the Scriptures prior to coming this morning for a verse that referred to Christ “raining”. Maybe not. The main reason I chose the spelling is that it came from a children’s message I read. Imagine a children’s sermon today, on this topic and entitling it “the reign of Christ” without explaining the meaning of the word. Imagine those precious minds attempting to figure out what was being explained. The illustration for that message was someone holding up an umbrella. It simply captured my attention.
Today is “Christ the King” or “the reign of Christ” Sunday. What does this mean?
Christ the King Sunday is the last Sunday of the season of Pentecost, the season that focuses on the church's mission in the world. Today is the last Sunday in the liturgical year. Liturgical means ‘relating to a rite or body of rites prescribed for public worship’. Today we can reflect back upon the entire church calendar year –from the incarnation, birth, life, death, and resurrection of Christ and look forward to Christ’s coming and the final reign of Christ. Today is a bridge between this past year and the start of a new one because next Sunday begins the Advent season, the preparation time for the coming of Christ. As we look forward to Advent, let me share with you a wonderful children’s Advent book written and illustrated by two of our own church members, Suzanne and Leila. This advent book for children, “Journey to the Manger” starts on December 1st and goes through the month to the celebration of the birth of Jesus. It is an interactive journey that parents can take with their children as they read the Scriptures together and then take part in an action step for that day. Then, there is space for the children to write or draw about what they did, how they felt, etc. It’s a wonderful way to walk the Advent journey! These advent journals are available for the children of Burks in the Narthex after the service and through the children’s Sunday school classes.
You’ve probably noticed throughout the year that the colors of the cloths (paraments) and banners change to reflect the different seasons of the liturgical year. There is meaning in those colors as well. Today’s colors are white and gold in recognition of Christ the King Sunday. White symbolizes purity, divinity, and victory. Gold symbolizes majesty, joy, and celebration. (NOTICE THE “KING OF KINGS” BANNER in the sanctuary?) In some years, Christ the King Sunday may be represented by green because the green reflects the season known as Kingdomtide or Ordinary Time (the time between Pentecost and Advent). Green symbolizes life and hope. Hopefully this brief lesson on the seasons and colors helps you to better understand how today fits in together with the rest of the calendar year.
As we reflect today on Christ the King, let’s look back at the verses in Ephesians 1, starting with verses 11 and 12: “In Christ we have also obtained an inheritance, having been destined according to the purpose of him who accomplishes all things according to his counsel and will, so that we, who were the first to set our hope on Christ, might live for the praise of his glory.”
We have obtained an inheritance in Christ. An inheritance. What do you think of when you hear the word “inheritance”? Something that has been left for someone by someone else in their will? The story of the prodigal son in Luke asking for his inheritance prior to his father’s death? Maybe you’ve received an inheritance and that’s what comes to mind.
I think of a book I read a couple of years ago and the movie I saw based on it: The Ultimate Gift by Jim Stovall. After his grandfather’s death, Jason receives a very unusual inheritance. Jason is given twelve tasks which his grandfather referred to as “gifts” to challenge him to grow as a man. Jason is given each task one by one and has to complete them before receiving the next gift. At the end of the gifts is the billion dollar inheritance. Through this experience Jason learns about life, love, relationships, work, and how to manage money. He learns the responsibilities of obtaining an inheritance.
What does it mean that we have obtained an inheritance in Christ? It is a spiritual inheritance. Our spiritual inheritance is life in Christ. How are we to live our spiritual inheritance? In verse 12 it says “so that we,[…], might live for the praise of his glory.” We are to live for the praise of his glory. Verses 13 and 14 continue: “In him you also, when you had heard the word of truth, the gospel of your salvation, and had believed in him, were marked with the seal of the promised Holy Spirit; this is the pledge of our inheritance towards redemption as God’s own people, to the praise of his glory.” Part of the inheritance is redemption as God’s own people. By accepting this inheritance, we live into being God’s people through relationship with Christ and one another. By accepting this inheritance, we take on the task of learning and living out the responsibilities of what this means.
What does it mean to think of Christ as King?—First, Christ wasn’t a king that wore a glittery crown, though many expected the Messiah to come in such glory. Christ’s way was different. His leadership throughout his life was not that of a figure head, but someone living in and among the people, leading them. In the end, to mock his authority, he was given a crown, a crown of thorns. Not a symbol of power, but of humility.
This crown reminds us of the crown that was placed upon his head as he was on the cross. This crown of thorns is from Israel. The thorns are extremely sharp [(just ask Riley—he stuck his hand in the box as he was asking me, ‘what’s this?’)] Per the literature that came with the crown, it was made in Bethlehem from a particular thorn bush with a double thorn pattern. It is said to be from the same type of branches used for the crown placed on Christ. Primarily, it is a visual reminder for us today that Christ’s reign as King was not as glorious as some wished for him and for themselves, but it was life-changing for those who chose to walk with Christ then and follow him and for those today who accept the relationship offered.
This crown reminds us of the crown that was placed upon his head as he was on the cross. This crown of thorns is from Israel. The thorns are extremely sharp [(just ask Riley—he stuck his hand in the box as he was asking me, ‘what’s this?’)] Per the literature that came with the crown, it was made in Bethlehem from a particular thorn bush with a double thorn pattern. It is said to be from the same type of branches used for the crown placed on Christ. Primarily, it is a visual reminder for us today that Christ’s reign as King was not as glorious as some wished for him and for themselves, but it was life-changing for those who chose to walk with Christ then and follow him and for those today who accept the relationship offered.
Second, as King, Christ is head of the body--Verses 20-23: “God put this power to work in Christ when he raised him from the dead and seated him at his right hand in the heavenly places, far above all rule and authority and power and dominion, and above every name that is named, not only in this age but also in the age to come. And he has put all things under his feet and has made him the head over all things for the church, which is his body, the fullness of him who fills all in all.” Christ is the head of the body, the church. This can be a whole other sermon! But for today, know that this means that Christ is to be in charge, in control.
To go back to the title, “Does Christ Rain?” Christ may not R-A-I-N “rain”, though you could use this spelling to see it as an outpouring and flowing of power and Holy Spirit. This morning someone shared with me from A Guide to Prayer for All Who Seek God and from the passage that was written by Rueben Job, this is what stood out to me: “We come away from this last Sunday of the church year soak to the core in the revelation of God in Christ.” “soaked to the core”. Maybe Christ does rain (R-A-I-N) after all. Christ does R-E-I-G-N “reign” as well. The question is: will you allow Christ to reign, to rule in your life? Will you allow Christ to be in charge, in control?
Two Scriptures come to mind when I reflect on how I personally respond to Christ. These two passages have become part of my faith journey. The references are on the GPS for you. The first one is one I had to memorize for my first mission trip as a faculty advisor to Caribbean Christian Center for the Deaf in the 90s. As faculty advisor, I wasn’t in control; the students were. Memorizing these verses was required to get into supper. Memorizing has never come easy to me and I wasn’t so sure I’d be eating that first night. This passage from Philippians and having to memorize it has impacted me on several levels. Since that mission trip, I refer to these verses as the “Jamaica verses” and I have tried to have the attitude of Christ.
Philippians 2:5-8 (NIV 1984)
“Your attitude should be the same as that of Christ Jesus:
6 Who, being in very nature God,
did not consider equality with God something to be grasped,
7 but made himself nothing,
taking the very nature of a servant,
being made in human likeness.
8 And being found in appearance as a man,
he humbled himself
and became obedient to death—
even death on a cross!
The second one is from Micah. There’s no great story really behind it impacting me, other than one day I heard it shared and it struck me that this is how I want to live my life, how I want to respond to Christ the King.
Micah 6:8 (NIV 1984)
“He has showed you, O man, what is good.
And what does the LORD require of you?
To act justly and to love mercy
and to walk humbly with your God.”
And what does the LORD require of you?
To act justly and to love mercy
and to walk humbly with your God.”
How is my life different because I have responded to Christ the King? [Since this was added in after the 1st service, the response was different in both the 2nd and 3rd service, though the bottom line is about the same…. My life is different in that I attempt to listen and obey, even when I wrestle and struggle with whatever it is I hear and am asked to be or do.]
In The Call, Os Guiness reminds us: “We are not our own; we have been bought with a price. We have no rights, only responsibilities. Following Christ is not our initiative, merely our response in obedience.” (p. 167)
What is your response to Christ the king today? Will you choose to follow Christ and be His disciple? How will you live out your inheritance?
As you reflect on your inheritance in Christ today and your response to him, I hope that thanksgiving will be part of the response that flows out of the relationship that you have with Christ.
I close with these words from Ephesians (verses 15-23). Listen carefully. This is a different version, the Contemporary English Version. The language is more personal. May the Lord speak to you as you hear these words:
“I have heard about your faith in the Lord Jesus and your love for all of God's people. So I never stop being grateful for you, as I mention you in my prayers. I ask the glorious Father and God of our Lord Jesus Christ to give you his Spirit. The Spirit will make you wise and let you understand what it means to know God. My prayer is that light will flood your hearts and that you will understand the hope that was given to you when God chose you. Then you will discover the glorious blessings that will be yours together with all of God's people. I want you to know about the great and mighty power that God has for us followers. It is the same wonderful power he used when he raised Christ from death and let him sit at his right side in heaven. There Christ rules over all forces, authorities, powers, and rulers. He rules over all beings in this world and will rule in the future world as well. God has put all things under the power of Christ, and for the good of the church he has made him the head of everything. The church is Christ's body and is filled with Christ who completely fills everything.” AMEN.
Monday, November 21, 2011
Reflections from Christ the King, Reign of Christ Sunday (part I)
Yesterday was Christ the King / Reign of Christ Sunday. I was privileged to have the opportunity to speak at my home church (Burks UMC in Hixson, TN), 3 times--two Traditional services and one Contemporary service. It was a great experience for me and a relief to be on this side of it. Why a relief? Because I made it. It was one of those risky, scary steps of faith and obedience that I took. I'm thinking there were others taking risky steps of faith in allowing me to do it as well. ☺ I'm grateful for the Mentored Ministry class I'm taking this semester that encouraged such an opportunity and even more grateful that my mentor was willing to allow me to pursue it.
It was the largest congregation I had ever been in front of for preaching. I have been in front of this congregation before in the Traditional service to read Scripture, the Affirmation, help with the offering and pray. But, those are all short-term activities. Preaching lasts a little longer. Was I nervous? Yes. Nervous from the day my mentor and I discussed it. Nervous like up on the trapeze platform again or on the edge of the rock formation about to rappel off. This was risky! But, I took the first step or leap. And, I'm glad I did.
As I've shared before, I never planned to be a teacher. Professors in college recommended me for a Teaching Assistantship at SUNY Stony Brook. The very first day that I was in the classroom, it felt right; it fit. I grew into becoming a better teacher over the course of the 24 years. I made lots of mistakes along the way, but it was me and I was in the right place.
I have spoken at other churches. My very first time was at Christ Church in Port Jefferson Station on Long Island. It was my last Sunday there, as it turned out. The pastor had long before planned to be on vacation and had asked me as a Lay Speaker to do pulpit supply. At the time we didn't know that I would be moving back south. "Are You Available?" was the title of my first sermon. Since then, I have spoken maybe two handfuls of times (including yesterday's 3 times). Each time, it has felt good and right. But, there was something yesterday, during that 3rd time, during the Contemporary service, that clicked and felt very right. Just like teaching felt.
That is exciting and scary as all get out to me. On one hand, I want to explore that and see where it leads. On the other hand, I want to bury that sucker deep down because it scares the heeby jeebies out of me. (Heeby jeebies is a colloquialism-- apologies to the many foreign readers. I am not sure of a better expression here.)
I received some insightful and encouraging feedback both yesterday and today. I have lots of room to grow in this area, in both my preparation and delivery. Just as I had lots of room to grow in my teaching from the time I first stepped into the classroom.
I'm not claiming to know where I'm headed yet. I'm not even claiming that I clearly see a new piece to the puzzle. All I'm saying is that this is something that I enjoy and I might very well be cut out for it. I'm leaving it in Someone else's hands still.
My parents came up from Dalton, GA to hear me. That was a very cool and pleasant surprise. My mom heard me back in 1989 when I spoke on Long Island. My dad had never heard me speak. It meant the world to me that they would drive up the road to support me and hear whatever it was that I might have to say.
Besides my parents coming, there were a few other things that happened yesterday morning prior to me preaching. Of those, the biggest two are indebted to a sister in Christ who was preparing for this day and praying for all of those in the service and the congregation. One was seeing the prayer card she had written out for the day and seeing the crown of thorns in the middle. She reacted when I walked in the door with a crown of thorns as well. That was a God thing for me. The second was seeing the quote for the day in the Green prayer book called A Guide to Prayer for All Those Who Seek God. It's the one Guide book I didn't have yet, so I hadn't read what it said for Sunday. The Blue and Red had some good quotes, but my breath was taken away as I read what was in the Green book. This prayer guide is edited by Rueben Job. Here is what she shared with me:
Once again the church has listened to, reflected upon, rehearsed in worship, and tried to live in daily experience the redemption story. We come away from this last Sunday of the church year soaked to the core in the revelation of God in Christ. For us, as for those first disciples, there can be no turning back. Here in the light of Christ's triumphant presence we find our voice and declare once again, Jesus Christ is Lord of all and shall reign as Lord in my life. So committed, we are ready to face every eventuality of life because we now know the One in whom our life is found, redeemed, and kept secure. Our radical trust is in the One who is completely trustworthy (2 Tim. 1:72). Life in Christ is good and complete." (A Guide to Prayer for All Those Who Seek God, Rueben Job, page 406.)
This grabbed my attention because of what the sermon held within it, and the title: "Does God Rain?".
Wow! Another God-thing.
Not only am I grateful to my mentor for this opportunity, but for all of those who prayed for me, near and far, and for those who stayed awake during the sermon. ☺ [That's what my daughter prayed for when she went off to Kidzone.... she lifted me up in prayer... that no one would fall asleep during the sermon. That was probably a good thing too as I wasn't as lively and interactive in that first service.] I'm thankful for all the kind comments and expressions of how folks were moved to action or what stood out to them or that they were able to clearly understand me. One comment was something to the effect that they support me in my calling. That one scared me!! It caused me to back up a little bit and remind them that I wasn't fully sure of what that calling is/was.... so they edited it to say that they supported me no matter where or how God is calling me. Whew!! You see, I still resist Christ the King... it is scary to say "yes", to follow and obey. Even if it's only for a 3 month position while someone goes out of town, right?!?! (hehe ☺) [Actually, I shouldn't put that in here because if the right person reads this, I'll be held accountable and reminded that at least she submitted and said "yes".]
I've said "yes" to alot of things over the past year. I've told God "okay" as God has brought things into my path and asked me whether or not I would accept these gifts of inheritance that were offered to me. I have shared in past blogs the things I've said "yes" to, even after my "arguing" and "wrestling" with God. I don't know where any of those things will lead. All I know is that I have a choice whether to accept them or not. The outcome is not up to me. It is up to God. At each crossroad, I have had to decide whether or not I would accept and live into what I felt was being asked of me or reject it.
And, truthfully, the reason I get scared today? I'm there again. Can't I get a break around here? Whew! This growing stuff is stretching me a little thin here. I need one of those "Stretch Armstrong" dolls... if anyone knows what I'm talking about..... but, writing about that is just putting off the inevitable.
The answer is: Yes, Lord, yes. Whew. I said it. Now that I've accepted it, maybe God will let me rest a little.... maybe?!?!? Just in case it's not clear, I'm saying yes into living in to my preacher me, whatever that means and whatever that is to be.
What is God asking you to answer? How is God stretching you? Are you willing to answer "yes"?
Keep on pressing on... this journey is an awesome adventure!
~Debra ☺
P.S. I will post the sermon in the next day or two.
It was the largest congregation I had ever been in front of for preaching. I have been in front of this congregation before in the Traditional service to read Scripture, the Affirmation, help with the offering and pray. But, those are all short-term activities. Preaching lasts a little longer. Was I nervous? Yes. Nervous from the day my mentor and I discussed it. Nervous like up on the trapeze platform again or on the edge of the rock formation about to rappel off. This was risky! But, I took the first step or leap. And, I'm glad I did.
As I've shared before, I never planned to be a teacher. Professors in college recommended me for a Teaching Assistantship at SUNY Stony Brook. The very first day that I was in the classroom, it felt right; it fit. I grew into becoming a better teacher over the course of the 24 years. I made lots of mistakes along the way, but it was me and I was in the right place.
I have spoken at other churches. My very first time was at Christ Church in Port Jefferson Station on Long Island. It was my last Sunday there, as it turned out. The pastor had long before planned to be on vacation and had asked me as a Lay Speaker to do pulpit supply. At the time we didn't know that I would be moving back south. "Are You Available?" was the title of my first sermon. Since then, I have spoken maybe two handfuls of times (including yesterday's 3 times). Each time, it has felt good and right. But, there was something yesterday, during that 3rd time, during the Contemporary service, that clicked and felt very right. Just like teaching felt.
That is exciting and scary as all get out to me. On one hand, I want to explore that and see where it leads. On the other hand, I want to bury that sucker deep down because it scares the heeby jeebies out of me. (Heeby jeebies is a colloquialism-- apologies to the many foreign readers. I am not sure of a better expression here.)
I received some insightful and encouraging feedback both yesterday and today. I have lots of room to grow in this area, in both my preparation and delivery. Just as I had lots of room to grow in my teaching from the time I first stepped into the classroom.
I'm not claiming to know where I'm headed yet. I'm not even claiming that I clearly see a new piece to the puzzle. All I'm saying is that this is something that I enjoy and I might very well be cut out for it. I'm leaving it in Someone else's hands still.
My parents came up from Dalton, GA to hear me. That was a very cool and pleasant surprise. My mom heard me back in 1989 when I spoke on Long Island. My dad had never heard me speak. It meant the world to me that they would drive up the road to support me and hear whatever it was that I might have to say.
Besides my parents coming, there were a few other things that happened yesterday morning prior to me preaching. Of those, the biggest two are indebted to a sister in Christ who was preparing for this day and praying for all of those in the service and the congregation. One was seeing the prayer card she had written out for the day and seeing the crown of thorns in the middle. She reacted when I walked in the door with a crown of thorns as well. That was a God thing for me. The second was seeing the quote for the day in the Green prayer book called A Guide to Prayer for All Those Who Seek God. It's the one Guide book I didn't have yet, so I hadn't read what it said for Sunday. The Blue and Red had some good quotes, but my breath was taken away as I read what was in the Green book. This prayer guide is edited by Rueben Job. Here is what she shared with me:
"We began the seasons of the church year with anticipation, and we end the seasons of the church year declaring a certainty. In Advent we waited for the needed and longed-for definitive and ultimate self-disclosure of God in the birth of Jesus of Nazareth. On Reign of Christ Sunday we celebrate the fulfillment of the biblical revelation of God in Christ.
This grabbed my attention because of what the sermon held within it, and the title: "Does God Rain?".
Wow! Another God-thing.
Not only am I grateful to my mentor for this opportunity, but for all of those who prayed for me, near and far, and for those who stayed awake during the sermon. ☺ [That's what my daughter prayed for when she went off to Kidzone.... she lifted me up in prayer... that no one would fall asleep during the sermon. That was probably a good thing too as I wasn't as lively and interactive in that first service.] I'm thankful for all the kind comments and expressions of how folks were moved to action or what stood out to them or that they were able to clearly understand me. One comment was something to the effect that they support me in my calling. That one scared me!! It caused me to back up a little bit and remind them that I wasn't fully sure of what that calling is/was.... so they edited it to say that they supported me no matter where or how God is calling me. Whew!! You see, I still resist Christ the King... it is scary to say "yes", to follow and obey. Even if it's only for a 3 month position while someone goes out of town, right?!?! (hehe ☺) [Actually, I shouldn't put that in here because if the right person reads this, I'll be held accountable and reminded that at least she submitted and said "yes".]
I've said "yes" to alot of things over the past year. I've told God "okay" as God has brought things into my path and asked me whether or not I would accept these gifts of inheritance that were offered to me. I have shared in past blogs the things I've said "yes" to, even after my "arguing" and "wrestling" with God. I don't know where any of those things will lead. All I know is that I have a choice whether to accept them or not. The outcome is not up to me. It is up to God. At each crossroad, I have had to decide whether or not I would accept and live into what I felt was being asked of me or reject it.
And, truthfully, the reason I get scared today? I'm there again. Can't I get a break around here? Whew! This growing stuff is stretching me a little thin here. I need one of those "Stretch Armstrong" dolls... if anyone knows what I'm talking about..... but, writing about that is just putting off the inevitable.
The answer is: Yes, Lord, yes. Whew. I said it. Now that I've accepted it, maybe God will let me rest a little.... maybe?!?!? Just in case it's not clear, I'm saying yes into living in to my preacher me, whatever that means and whatever that is to be.
What is God asking you to answer? How is God stretching you? Are you willing to answer "yes"?
Keep on pressing on... this journey is an awesome adventure!
~Debra ☺
P.S. I will post the sermon in the next day or two.
Friday, November 18, 2011
The Process of Deepening
This morning my daughter called from school. She rarely calls from school. Her request today was for her "crazy hat", her Mardi Gras hat, compliments of a friend. Today was a crazy hat day if you provided for the "Fun for a Buck" school technology fundraiser. We had done that earlier in the week, but had forgotten the hat today. She had worn a ski mask to school to keep warm today and I attempted to talk her into allowing that to be her crazy hat. I don't know why I said I would do it, but I agreed to bring the Mardi Gras jester hat to school. I have never brought anything for her that she has forgotten to school in the K-5 years that she has been there.
On the way, I wondered if there was more reason than the silly crazy hat.
On my way out of the school, I turned to greet someone coming down the hall and stopped for a brief conversation. We had a short, but good conversation about how things are going and where things are in her life. It was awesome to hear how God was leading and guiding! I believe that was one of those God-appointments.
Then, I come back home and start my devotional reading for the day. In A Guide to Prayer for All God's People (red book) I read a quote that struck me as relational to the conversation I had just had. The quote resonated with me on other levels as well because I've been on a journey of going deeper since 2006.
Here is the quote that I read. It is by John Wijngaards from his book Inheriting the Master's Cloak (1985, p. 83). In the Guide to Prayer it is found on pages 338 and 339. I found a website with this book online, so the quote comes from there:
"Christian faith must constantly grow. It cannot remain static. Either it will slowly wither and die, or it will mature and bear ever more fruit. And as the stem grows higher and the branches heavier, it needs to strike deeper roots. Without deeper roots, there is little hope for survival.
Perhaps we are under the impression that Jesus himself did not need to undergo this process of deepening. Such an idea would be wrong. It is contradicted by all the indications that we can glean from the gospels, no less than by the explicit statement that Jesus grew in wisdom and grace (Lk 2:52). Being truly human in every sense of the word, Jesus needed to reflect, to incorporate new experiences into his self-concept, to reinforce his ideals and nurture his heart and mind with new images. Jesus was the most vibrant, open, sensitive, keen, inquisitive religious leader that ever lived. If his humanity, as we believe, presented “the exact likeness of God’s own being” (Heb 1:3), it reflected also the irrepressible vitality of God. At the same time, being one of us, Jesus needed to learn - “Even though he was God’s Son, he learned through his sufferings to be obedient” (Heb 5:8). And the need to suffer was precisely a very upsetting discovery Jesus made."
http://www.womenpriests.org/jnmwbooks/inherit8.asp
Several things strike me from this quote. First, "Christian faith must constantly grow". Christian faith must constantly grow. Christian faith must constantly grow. Christian faith must constantly grow. As I reflect upon this statement, there are several key words compacted together. This is powerful. That's why I repeated it three times with the emphasis on each different word. Our roots must go deeper or else there is little hope for survival. Ouch! That's harsh sounding, or at least difficult to hear. If we aren't growing deeper, then it is likely that we won't survive.
This growing deeper stuff, striking deeper roots, how does that come about?
I know this image won't resonate with most folks, but I thought of the 80s arcade game "Dig Dug". The little guy had to dig deep to get through the course, avoid obstacles, blow up enemies, etc. It's not fully theologically sound, but it gives an image of going deeper.
On the way, I wondered if there was more reason than the silly crazy hat.
On my way out of the school, I turned to greet someone coming down the hall and stopped for a brief conversation. We had a short, but good conversation about how things are going and where things are in her life. It was awesome to hear how God was leading and guiding! I believe that was one of those God-appointments.
Then, I come back home and start my devotional reading for the day. In A Guide to Prayer for All God's People (red book) I read a quote that struck me as relational to the conversation I had just had. The quote resonated with me on other levels as well because I've been on a journey of going deeper since 2006.
Here is the quote that I read. It is by John Wijngaards from his book Inheriting the Master's Cloak (1985, p. 83). In the Guide to Prayer it is found on pages 338 and 339. I found a website with this book online, so the quote comes from there:
"Christian faith must constantly grow. It cannot remain static. Either it will slowly wither and die, or it will mature and bear ever more fruit. And as the stem grows higher and the branches heavier, it needs to strike deeper roots. Without deeper roots, there is little hope for survival.
“Some of the seed fell on rocky ground, where there was little soil. The seeds sprouted, because the soil wasn’t deep. Then, when the sun came up, it burned the young plants; and because the roots had not grown deep enough, the plants soon dried up” (Mk 4:5-6).
Perhaps we are under the impression that Jesus himself did not need to undergo this process of deepening. Such an idea would be wrong. It is contradicted by all the indications that we can glean from the gospels, no less than by the explicit statement that Jesus grew in wisdom and grace (Lk 2:52). Being truly human in every sense of the word, Jesus needed to reflect, to incorporate new experiences into his self-concept, to reinforce his ideals and nurture his heart and mind with new images. Jesus was the most vibrant, open, sensitive, keen, inquisitive religious leader that ever lived. If his humanity, as we believe, presented “the exact likeness of God’s own being” (Heb 1:3), it reflected also the irrepressible vitality of God. At the same time, being one of us, Jesus needed to learn - “Even though he was God’s Son, he learned through his sufferings to be obedient” (Heb 5:8). And the need to suffer was precisely a very upsetting discovery Jesus made."
http://www.womenpriests.org/jnmwbooks/inherit8.asp
Several things strike me from this quote. First, "Christian faith must constantly grow". Christian faith must constantly grow. Christian faith must constantly grow. Christian faith must constantly grow. As I reflect upon this statement, there are several key words compacted together. This is powerful. That's why I repeated it three times with the emphasis on each different word. Our roots must go deeper or else there is little hope for survival. Ouch! That's harsh sounding, or at least difficult to hear. If we aren't growing deeper, then it is likely that we won't survive.
This growing deeper stuff, striking deeper roots, how does that come about?
I know this image won't resonate with most folks, but I thought of the 80s arcade game "Dig Dug". The little guy had to dig deep to get through the course, avoid obstacles, blow up enemies, etc. It's not fully theologically sound, but it gives an image of going deeper.
When I think about roots needing to strike deeper in the soil, that can't be easy either. If the dirt is packed solid, the roots must work their way slowly and tediously as they attempt to break away some of the dirt to find a path deeper. Rain may soften the ground to make the process easier.
In life, in our Christian faith journey, there can be pain, suffering, loss, and often chaos during the process of deepening. We are often shocked that we must go through these things. But, as we are reminded by Wijngaards here, Jesus went underwent the process of deepening through suffering, so why do we not expect it?
As my friend pointed out this morning, we are typically in one of three places on the journey-- in the garden praying out to God, on the cross suffering, or experiencing the glory of the resurrection. Just as Christ experienced these on different stages of growth, we will too, albeit differently from Christ.
Regardless of where we find ourselves, hopefully we will recognize the change and the growth taking place as we go deeper.
The process of deepening is worth it!
Here's to going deeper!
~Debra
Monday, November 7, 2011
Spanish/English Fortune Cookie from a Chinese Restaurant
Tonight my husband brought in Chinese for supper! He went to Panda Chinese, near Nick's Deli. He brought our daughter's favorite dish: chicken, broccoli, and baby corn (though this baby corn looked like it had special growth hormones). We shared a beef, chicken, shrimp dish. Each of us had an egg roll. Yummy. From a different visit there, I have a picture of me in front of the Great Wall.
At the end of the meal, our daughter was anxious to open up the fortune cookies. To my surprise, mine was in Spanish. I hadn't noticed the other side yet. There are normally lottery numbers on the other side. It said: "¡La educación es la llave al éxito." (Education is the key to success.) My daughter thought that was very appropriate since I started back to school last Spring. When she opened up her fortune cookie, hers was in English. How odd, we thought. It was then that we noticed that there was English on one side and Spanish on the other.
I still find it odd that the Chinese restaurant in a suburb of Chattanooga, TN has Spanish and English fortune cookies. ☺ But, since Spanish and English are two of my languages, I won't complain.
I was even almost seeing the Spanish as a "sign" before I realized they were bilingual. Yet, even bilingual, they still might be an encouragement meant for me. Who knows!?!?!
All I know is that through a fortune cookie tonight, I am encouraged to keep on keeping on in my educational path. No, it wasn't simply the fortune cookie. I get quite a bit of encouragement to keep on keeping on from what Dale Hale writes on the EXL front page. His writings are timely and encouraging. He encourages us students to not give up, to keep on keeping on.
I continue to struggle through the brain drain of Greek, although I believe it is totally worth it.
Right now my daughter is working on a poem project due this Friday. She is singing "Lord of the Dance" and "Oh, no, you never let go, you never let go of me." Hearing her sing is encouraging to me. I get strength from her faith and her beliefs.
What encourages you? Who encourages you?
We all need encouragement along our journey. It can come from a bilingual fortune cookie, a family member, a friend, something we read, etc.
My 10 year old daughter just reminded me from her younger days of a famous quote from a famous short construction worker: "Can we do it? Yes we can!" ~Bob the Builder
Whenever you get discouraged, may encouragement be on its way!
Can you do it? Yes you can!
May you be encouraged on your journey!
~Debra
At the end of the meal, our daughter was anxious to open up the fortune cookies. To my surprise, mine was in Spanish. I hadn't noticed the other side yet. There are normally lottery numbers on the other side. It said: "¡La educación es la llave al éxito." (Education is the key to success.) My daughter thought that was very appropriate since I started back to school last Spring. When she opened up her fortune cookie, hers was in English. How odd, we thought. It was then that we noticed that there was English on one side and Spanish on the other.
I still find it odd that the Chinese restaurant in a suburb of Chattanooga, TN has Spanish and English fortune cookies. ☺ But, since Spanish and English are two of my languages, I won't complain.
I was even almost seeing the Spanish as a "sign" before I realized they were bilingual. Yet, even bilingual, they still might be an encouragement meant for me. Who knows!?!?!
All I know is that through a fortune cookie tonight, I am encouraged to keep on keeping on in my educational path. No, it wasn't simply the fortune cookie. I get quite a bit of encouragement to keep on keeping on from what Dale Hale writes on the EXL front page. His writings are timely and encouraging. He encourages us students to not give up, to keep on keeping on.
I continue to struggle through the brain drain of Greek, although I believe it is totally worth it.
Right now my daughter is working on a poem project due this Friday. She is singing "Lord of the Dance" and "Oh, no, you never let go, you never let go of me." Hearing her sing is encouraging to me. I get strength from her faith and her beliefs.
What encourages you? Who encourages you?
We all need encouragement along our journey. It can come from a bilingual fortune cookie, a family member, a friend, something we read, etc.
My 10 year old daughter just reminded me from her younger days of a famous quote from a famous short construction worker: "Can we do it? Yes we can!" ~Bob the Builder
Whenever you get discouraged, may encouragement be on its way!
Can you do it? Yes you can!
May you be encouraged on your journey!
~Debra
Saturday, November 5, 2011
Obstacle or opportunity?
I saw a sign that prompted some reflection earlier this week. A real sign, one of those church signs. I tried to remember what it said, but decided to go back and take a picture instead this afternoon. This is what it had written on it: "If a path has no obstacles it probably does not lead to anything of value."
Hmm... definitely something to ponder, to reflect, to think upon, to chew on.... at least for me. My path has had obstacles just this week. How about yours? How have you dealt with your obstacles? Me? Well, some of them have caused me to stumble for a moment or two; others have become stepping stones.
We have a choice when we come across an obstacle in our path. It can simply be an obstacle to us, or it can become an opportunity. An opportunity for challenge and change; for growth. It can be a stumbling block or a stepping stone. I used to use these sets of words quite a bit during college volleyball games that I attended when I taught at Bryan College. Because I knew the students, I would go to the matches. And as they played, I would yell out "opportunity" when the going got rough or a player was getting frustrated. It wasn't as random as it seems. Usually I had already had conversations with folks and they knew what I meant. But, do I remember now what I meant?
I think so. It's just frustrating to deal with obstacles and defeat, especially when there are several on the path at one time.
It reminds me of a hiking trail my husband and I went on a couple of months back. Before we made it to the newly constructed ladder to go up to the next level, there were several downed trees blocking the path. It was definitely an obstacle. We stopped and took some time to clear the path so that could get through and so that others behind us could get through at some point. We could have gone around the obstacle, but there was a drop-off on the left and the foliage wasn't very clear. So, in this instance, it was best to clear the obstacle.
Sometimes we will need to go around the obstacle. Sometimes we might need to find a way to clear it. At other times we might seek a way over or through it. There may even be times when it is best to seek out a different path. Wisdom and discernment become key in deciding what action to take.
This past week for me, for one obstacle, I've taken steps of prayer and trust. I came to a point where I was praying the the FFH song, "move or move me." And God did both. I saw God move and move me.
Here are the lyrics and a link to that song: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ylu9bGdFCm8
"Lord, Move or Move Me"
Hmm... definitely something to ponder, to reflect, to think upon, to chew on.... at least for me. My path has had obstacles just this week. How about yours? How have you dealt with your obstacles? Me? Well, some of them have caused me to stumble for a moment or two; others have become stepping stones.
We have a choice when we come across an obstacle in our path. It can simply be an obstacle to us, or it can become an opportunity. An opportunity for challenge and change; for growth. It can be a stumbling block or a stepping stone. I used to use these sets of words quite a bit during college volleyball games that I attended when I taught at Bryan College. Because I knew the students, I would go to the matches. And as they played, I would yell out "opportunity" when the going got rough or a player was getting frustrated. It wasn't as random as it seems. Usually I had already had conversations with folks and they knew what I meant. But, do I remember now what I meant?
I think so. It's just frustrating to deal with obstacles and defeat, especially when there are several on the path at one time.
It reminds me of a hiking trail my husband and I went on a couple of months back. Before we made it to the newly constructed ladder to go up to the next level, there were several downed trees blocking the path. It was definitely an obstacle. We stopped and took some time to clear the path so that could get through and so that others behind us could get through at some point. We could have gone around the obstacle, but there was a drop-off on the left and the foliage wasn't very clear. So, in this instance, it was best to clear the obstacle.
Sometimes we will need to go around the obstacle. Sometimes we might need to find a way to clear it. At other times we might seek a way over or through it. There may even be times when it is best to seek out a different path. Wisdom and discernment become key in deciding what action to take.
This past week for me, for one obstacle, I've taken steps of prayer and trust. I came to a point where I was praying the the FFH song, "move or move me." And God did both. I saw God move and move me.
Here are the lyrics and a link to that song: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ylu9bGdFCm8
"Lord, Move or Move Me"
I can't find the words to pray
I'm a little down today
Can you help me?
Can you hold me?
I feel a million miles away
And I don't know what to say
Can ya here me anyway?
What I need is for you to reach out your hand
You have taught me
No matter what you'd understand
CHORUS:
Lord move in the way, that I've never seen before
Cause there's a mountain in the way and I'll knock on the door
I'm drifting away, waves are crashing on the shore
So Lord move (move), or move me.
END CHORUS
I've look every where to find
A simple peace of mind
I can't find nothing on my own
So I got to leave myself behind
Take up this cross of mine
Give away everything I hold onto
Lord I know the only way is through this
Lord I know I need you to help me do this
CHORUS
Lord move in the way, that I've never seen before
Cause there's a mountain in the way and I'll knock on the door
I'm drifting away, waves are crashing on the shore
So Lord move (move), or move me.
Out of this place of complacency
To a place of fellowship with thee
Cause I am weak but Lord you are so strong
And you know it's been way too long (been way too long)
Lord move in the way, that I've never seen before
Cause there's a mountain in the way and I'll knock on the door
I'm drifting away, waves are crashing on the shore
So Lord move (move)...
CHORUS
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As you come across obstacles on your path, know that they don't have to stop you in your tracks, but rather they can become part of your growth process. I pray that your obstacles become opportunities and stepping stones along your journey and that you are encouraged to keep moving forward.
~Debra
I'm a little down today
Can you help me?
Can you hold me?
I feel a million miles away
And I don't know what to say
Can ya here me anyway?
What I need is for you to reach out your hand
You have taught me
No matter what you'd understand
CHORUS:
Lord move in the way, that I've never seen before
Cause there's a mountain in the way and I'll knock on the door
I'm drifting away, waves are crashing on the shore
So Lord move (move), or move me.
END CHORUS
I've look every where to find
A simple peace of mind
I can't find nothing on my own
So I got to leave myself behind
Take up this cross of mine
Give away everything I hold onto
Lord I know the only way is through this
Lord I know I need you to help me do this
CHORUS
Lord move in the way, that I've never seen before
Cause there's a mountain in the way and I'll knock on the door
I'm drifting away, waves are crashing on the shore
So Lord move (move), or move me.
Out of this place of complacency
To a place of fellowship with thee
Cause I am weak but Lord you are so strong
And you know it's been way too long (been way too long)
Lord move in the way, that I've never seen before
Cause there's a mountain in the way and I'll knock on the door
I'm drifting away, waves are crashing on the shore
So Lord move (move)...
CHORUS
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As you come across obstacles on your path, know that they don't have to stop you in your tracks, but rather they can become part of your growth process. I pray that your obstacles become opportunities and stepping stones along your journey and that you are encouraged to keep moving forward.
~Debra
Wednesday, November 2, 2011
Spiritual Formation Through Poetry
I'll admit that I had not really considered the possibilities of growing spiritually through poetry before last week. Now, that surprises me on one hand, because DUH! the book of Psalms is known for its poetry. And, I've read poetry throughout my life that has been significant to me. Plus, folks in my Bible Study have shared poetry from time to time that has touched a spark. Yet, for some reason, I hadn't considered intentionally incorporating poetry into my spiritual formation (or helping others do the same). You'd think that someone who advocates anything read, including the newspaper and the comic strips would have been looking into poetry.
Last week at the Academy we were introduced to several poets and several poems. One or two I was familiar with, the rest were new to me. And, from among our midst, there were several poets sharing their formation through poetry as well. It has been many years since I've written poetry about my life, my thoughts, my personal stuff. That may be something that I revisit, now that the door has been cracked open.
My life has been cracked open. There is now space to explore poetry in terms of spiritual formation and growth. I am going to venture and guess that if I find some of my "Nothing" books and other journals where I've written poetry, I might just find some poems dealing with spiritual formation and growth from my own life.
I shared one poet and poem in a post last week. I will share another one here. What I would like to do is have a gathering and share poems that have significance for spiritual formation and life for those who are interested, to be able to discuss them. But, that's down the road a little.
Last week I was introduced to Mary Oliver, David Whyte, Hafiz, Robert Bly, William Stafford, and Jerry Webber. I was reminded of and re-introduced to Rainer Maria Rilke. So, from time to time, I'll be sharing poetry, like I did in an earlier post when I shared "The Way It Is" by William Stafford.
Today, I'll share just one, one to which I've already made reference:
My life cracks open
Jerry Webber
My life cracks open.
I stand in it
careful not to run.
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Read this a couple of times through. How does it speak to you? What does it say to you? What in your life is cracking open? Are you willing and able to simply "stand"? Beyond allowing this to speak to your head (mind), allow this to speak to your heart.
Blessings on your journey as you stand in the opened crack,
~Debra
Last week at the Academy we were introduced to several poets and several poems. One or two I was familiar with, the rest were new to me. And, from among our midst, there were several poets sharing their formation through poetry as well. It has been many years since I've written poetry about my life, my thoughts, my personal stuff. That may be something that I revisit, now that the door has been cracked open.
My life has been cracked open. There is now space to explore poetry in terms of spiritual formation and growth. I am going to venture and guess that if I find some of my "Nothing" books and other journals where I've written poetry, I might just find some poems dealing with spiritual formation and growth from my own life.
I shared one poet and poem in a post last week. I will share another one here. What I would like to do is have a gathering and share poems that have significance for spiritual formation and life for those who are interested, to be able to discuss them. But, that's down the road a little.
Last week I was introduced to Mary Oliver, David Whyte, Hafiz, Robert Bly, William Stafford, and Jerry Webber. I was reminded of and re-introduced to Rainer Maria Rilke. So, from time to time, I'll be sharing poetry, like I did in an earlier post when I shared "The Way It Is" by William Stafford.
Today, I'll share just one, one to which I've already made reference:
My life cracks open
Jerry Webber
My life cracks open.
I stand in it
careful not to run.
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Read this a couple of times through. How does it speak to you? What does it say to you? What in your life is cracking open? Are you willing and able to simply "stand"? Beyond allowing this to speak to your head (mind), allow this to speak to your heart.
Blessings on your journey as you stand in the opened crack,
~Debra
Tuesday, November 1, 2011
¿Dónde está Jesús? / Where is Jesus? Session #2
If you read my first blog on this topic, you know that the Jesus Doll is part of the worship experience at the 2 Year Academy of which I'm a part. I shared some photos of Jesus and the altar scenes and my reflections for the week from my first week.
I was looking forward to the Academy. I was looking forward to meeting back up with the team, my group, and the others. I was looking forward to all the Spanish and the worship. I was looking forward to the faculty and what they had for us. I was looking forward to the silence and the solitude. I was looking forward to seeing the alligators. If that last one didn't make me sound a little crazy, now I'm going to sound like a little kid here, but that's okay. As I claim, I'm a child of God. ☺ I was also looking forward to seeing the Jesus Doll. I could be "spiritual" and say that I was looking forward to seeing Jesus. (And, I was.) But, I seriously was looking forward to seeing how the Jesus Doll would participate in worship with us during the week, according to the themes of the day.
I didn't get pictures everyday this past week of Jesus, but I got a few. One I didn't get was the first day we arrived. The word was "creation". Jesus was in the back of the room, sitting by the shell with the stones and water, holding a vine. That was cool.
The next morning, Jesus was sitting on the floor in front of the altar with his right hand raised up as if to say, "Hi".
Below, Jesus holding an apple on the theme day for "sin".
Here, Jesus is knitting. I love the yarn colors here! (I forgot the word theme for this day.)
I was looking forward to the Academy. I was looking forward to meeting back up with the team, my group, and the others. I was looking forward to all the Spanish and the worship. I was looking forward to the faculty and what they had for us. I was looking forward to the silence and the solitude. I was looking forward to seeing the alligators. If that last one didn't make me sound a little crazy, now I'm going to sound like a little kid here, but that's okay. As I claim, I'm a child of God. ☺ I was also looking forward to seeing the Jesus Doll. I could be "spiritual" and say that I was looking forward to seeing Jesus. (And, I was.) But, I seriously was looking forward to seeing how the Jesus Doll would participate in worship with us during the week, according to the themes of the day.
I didn't get pictures everyday this past week of Jesus, but I got a few. One I didn't get was the first day we arrived. The word was "creation". Jesus was in the back of the room, sitting by the shell with the stones and water, holding a vine. That was cool.
The next morning, Jesus was sitting on the floor in front of the altar with his right hand raised up as if to say, "Hi".
Below, Jesus holding an apple on the theme day for "sin".
Here, Jesus is knitting. I love the yarn colors here! (I forgot the word theme for this day.)
Here, Jesus is in exile, far away from the other things.
The last morning, I walked in for worship and looked around. I didn't see Jesus anywhere. I wondered where he had gone. I asked the one in charge of setting up the altars and the worship space and she explained to me that Jesus had gone the night before to keep someone company, someone who needed Jesus more than the worship space. That was pretty cool, I thought.
I sat down and started preparing my heart and mind for worship. Then, I looked up at the theme for the day and the word was "restoration". WOW! Not just "pretty cool", but REALLY COOL!! Because I knew where Jesus was. I knew who he was with. And, there was no better place for Jesus to be on this day of restoration than with this person.
Yet, what did that mean for the worship space?!?! I don't know, we'll see. Jesus has a way of showing up unexpected. I'm not going to lose hope that I will see Jesus once again worship with us and among us.
Meanwhile, it looks like it's going to be up to the rest of us to be the Jesus that he modeled for us. To live daily into whatever the "theme" of the day brings and to worship alongside others, to be the hands and feet that bring hope, love, and restoration to those in need.
I know, I know... maybe it's odd that the Jesus Doll can inspire me so much, but it has! And, I'm not the only one. There are several of us wondering about a group discount. ☺
Anyway, may you find Jesus when you seek him. May you be inspired to live as he did.
Blessings on your journey!
~Debra ☺
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